Reflections

This post is a reflective one.

Okay so I was pretty emo during a few days out of the last few weeks.. And after coming back home on national day, i kinda burst and blurbed nonsense to A. Right now, I still feel so guilty man. But luckily she's nice la.

Many stories of S was told to me and like, I never knew he did so much for me... From getting the necklace to the soft toy. And not forgetting spending a large sum of money for the cushion... I'm really glad like all these happened and even if it didn't turn out well, I m glad to have been through all these....

Next, I'm getting more and more 感触 with the daily whatsapp with A. I didn't mean to emphasize this so many times but I think that night of whatsapp, it really created a beautiful beginning. Its been like 2 mths since then and we have been whatsapping like almost everyday. LOL. It's really great when there's someone you can disturb and she'll entertain you when you're bored, talk to when you're annoyed by some ppl at sch, teaching you chemistry at 1am, chatting on the phone with while sitting at the roadside waiting for transport home, waiting for you to finish your work before sleeping and So on.... Not forgetting someone for you to spam her twitter... Hehe.

I mean, we meet so many people in our entire life, but how many can you spend good times like this with? It has been an awesome 2 mths and no doubt the down times had silent us at many times, but the best thing is, the friendship never falters after everything. I can say yeah, sometimes to me, she's not just a friend because of the large difference in identity we have right from the start, the day i know her till now; our identity in this friendship may have been fixed since day one but at many times, the interactions tell it all. i do question if making friends with her actually create topics for people to judge me on but i guess it doesn't really matter afterall.

I am always glad when I know there is someone who is there at 12am that I can talk to or even ask qns; although it doesn't always applies but most of the time it does..

The last two months have made me a much more matured person I feel where I've learnt to give my advices and opinions to others and not just the usual, listening to what others have to say as a friend. This experience I'm thankful for and I know there'll be more much to come for the next few months.

All i can say is, thankyou; to myself, to A,to God. (:

A: your darkest period is nearly over! No more heartaches, smiling at her msges( but mine instead! Hahaha) and most of all, be happy! Sorry for the emo times and thanks for trusting me so much by telling me all the things that are really, the deepest secrets. Idk how to describe this feeling but it's really great to be whatsapping about almost anything and everything. Kudos to more good times! (: