Today was really hectic all day round. started with clearing emails and doing shortlisting. Teaching huiyi along the way. Towards the end of the day was even more busy. chionging everything like mad. wl and i switch seats and tasks. lol. Helped her experiment her charts while she helped me print my app forms. it was quite funny since the chart she plotted was fat while mine was slim....
Left office at 645pm with her and train-ed together. she exited the train at eunos when my mum called to ask me to eat something at eunos and go cdc myself... literally jumped out of the train. Looked for wl and she was really nice to accompany me to find some food to eat... Had the tau huey which may said was good. thought it was so-so only. took about 20mins to eat the tau huey while talking to her...
bus-ed to cdc. reached ard 830pm and i was so worried that i wont be able to book my driving tests! luckily the queue moved quite fast and i managed to book and get to my car on time... parallel parking today and it was fun! my instructor was a really chatty guy.. we talked alot while he taught and guided me to do parallel parking! i like him as an instructor man. but the car was quite bad. there wasn't cushion and i was rather short ( as usual) for the old car.... the steering wheel was really heavy but i guess just some arm exercises for me! haha.
Dad came to fetch me home. Showered and ate dinner at 11pm! oh well, good food are worth waiting for. hehehe.
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Today I showed wl my tumblr over lunch. It was really, a place where I concealed my thoughts during my most down periods last year and the special feelings for those few people which seems like it never went away. Honestly, I couldn't remb exactly what did i wrote about but roughly had an idea. Showing it to her was just as though i opened this little space of mine to some form of intrusion(which was the main reason why only A had access to it: i just wanted to protect my own thoughts). BUT, I didn't feel regretful or unhappy opening up and reading that own space myself. Afterall, She gave me her trust in telling me her thoughts, which in turn, gave me much more confidence to trust her with mine as well.
It's over, for the longest time already. I have braced through the obstacles and conquered A levels. I have led the most exciting adolescent period of my life in just NYJC. All that I have been through, it's long gone and remains as history in me.
I liked him. But i wasn't worth the wait. I came to realized that it's time to let go. He's been attached for 2 years now and our memories are history. It's time to move on. And I am glad that I came to a conclusion within myself that I have and will meet better people in my life who will in one point in time, change me for the greater good.
A levels was the toughest academic journey in my life but i have no regrets doing it. I have accomplished so much more and grown going through it. I have met people whose encouragements and help i couldn't have done without. Silin, pau, bella, ah ting, wip, kimmie. I conquered my lousiest subjects with tutors who never gave up on me. Ms V in lit and Ms Liang in maths. I'll probably never forget 11/11/11 and the times where ms liang dedicated all her time to us. I made it and am really proud of it.
So.... opening up the tumblr wasn't any form of harm to me afterall ( as i thought it would initially). I have gotten so much more affirmation and confidence in myself. Those emo times, it's over and I am moving to better times. Its those memories that pushes me to be more resilient and stronger.
And I am thankful that wl constantly pushes me to know myself better and learn so much more things about life, although not on purpose but more of indirectly. Really can't express how glad I am to know her. Looking forward to the remaining few weeks left. =D
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