Protector

I really wanted to pen this down too...

This 3 months, you've been through so much. I've seen you cried(not literally), seen you emo, having mixed and confused emotions, sinking back in and climbing back out, showing and telling me your memories, pretending you're okay when you're not, chinese lyrics and blog post and all your awkward moments upon mentioning bout it...

You can't tell how glad I am when you sent me the msg that 'I think im falling in love'. I really think it's the end of the previous relationship...

No matter how this upcoming one is gonna be, always know that I'll be right here, hoping for the best for you. I think the person is really nice after doing all the background check (haha) and i think he'll be v nice to you. Even if it's just as a friend, the most unpredictable can happen in the most unexpected moment. Maybe, just maybe, you'll might become really good friends even if it's not love. But of course, I hope it will be the latter and I'll always be on standby for your big day! Haha.

Oh and Be alittle less conservative leh. I meant in terms of friendly actions like texting and replying. Girls can take initiative too. You know, the future lies in our hands. It's either we go all out for it, or don't at all.

I'll be wishing hard that he will be your protector in time to come and may you two run to a future together. (:

The history, Let it go, may it flow like the river, fast and be gone forever.

The present, let it run in you and through you, may this feeling be forever.

The future, let it unveil itself, may you be able to see the most perfect moments with him till eternity.

这满城风雨里，我遇见了你
灰暗的天色中，你点亮了我的心
风雨同舟，只想着未来我和你
这雨一滴一滴，我对你浓情蜜意

26 August

I just want to pen down some thoughts from the friday

Friday was 26th August. I think this date will be significant to me for quite some time from this year. It was his birthday.

Last year, all that I Remb about 26 aug was YOG closing ceremony. I've been one busy bee the whole of august last year. I kinda admit that I ignored Him from the Start quite a far bit.

It wasn't when he told me everything of how he felt that fateful night before SYF that I know what he's thinking all along. I saw it more of like because you didn't tell me how you felt all along that's why I don't know.

And I kinda feel bad thinking bout his 21st bday party. His Sis wanted to rent a yacht for him to celebrate but he wanted to spend it with me, just that nothing of this sort happened. So he lead a quiet 21st bday, as quiet as you can imagine.

On Friday, I thought if I should do something this year as a friend on his bday. I had thoughts about meeting him after school but idk why but I gave up that thought with fears that I might give a wrong idea...

So, Idk why I posted this but this I just felt abit affected by it...

Okay end of this meaningless post.

Birthday Wishlist

this is a super random post. I decided to post my birthday wishlist for the first time... Don't think i've ever done so?

Actually, i don't really have many things that i want. I thought hard about it and there's only 3 things that I kinda wished for? But they are all expensive items, so..... I would do fine with small little presents like cards and boards! (:

1) Polaroid Camera

Seriously, i have been wanting to buy a polaroid camera for the longest time.. I think since last year. BUT... somehow the plan always fails when i attempt to get it..

2a) Tom Tom Shoes

Okay, i admit I am those type of people who likes to collect shoes.. So yeah i think Toms are really nice now! I like the navy blue and the brown up in the pic above and the pink and the green one below.. haha. But shoes are difficult cos of the sizing.. i think i am Euro size 36? LOL.

2b) Vans

HAHA i have been eyeing on a pair of Vans for a very long time too!

2c) Cotton On Rubi Shoes

i told you i am a shoe collector. This pair of rubi shoe, i have been telling my classmates that i want to get it umpteen times already! LOL. i quite like the blue ones....

3) I want my personal stamp!

saves the trouble of writing names! HEHE.

What NOT to get for me on my birthday:

1) Books

Seriously, i don't like reading and i only read for the sake of it so if you're gonna buy me a book, you're basically helping my brother expand his library. He probably have got 100+ storybooks at home so i think he'll be most glad to receive more books...

2) Weird and Horny stuff

This one is VERY APPLICABLE TO ISABELLA TEH! I swear if you get me some stupid thing, ( I dont know what lame things you can get) I'll spam your facebook wall, stomp you and defame you! Better don't hor!

3) Dresses

Yes yes, i know you all wanna see me in dress but please don't get me anymore dresses! To my beloved classmates, you'll will see me in one during prom so pleaseeeeee don't get me dresses okay! oh and plus the underwear part. No spongebob panties okay!

Then for the birthday cake part, as most of my friends know, I don't like to take chocolate stuff. And so,i kinda end up with bengawan solo's fruit cake every year? LOL. So i'd urge that you either don't buy me a cake or choose something else:

1) Haagen Daaz Macademia Nut Ice Cream Cake

this is my personal favorite and i always bug my parents to buy for me! muahaha.

2) Macarons

I kinda told my mum i wanted 19 of this for my birthday this year. I have never tried it before but it looks good!

3) Cheese Cake

I am not a fan of cheese cake but i quite like it above any other cake...

Okay, so that's about it? Maybe if i think of anything else I'll add in again.

Perceptions

perceptions of alamak and her love life: it has been a matter of noteworthiness to me, identifying the nuances in mak's very hedonistic love life. ~Isabella.

Night Study.

I stayed back for night study program with Vic on Friday night and it was quite a cool session I must say! So eventful!

So we went for mr lee's WSS lesson at about 330 upon knowing that he changed the time again. We finished at bout 410pm and headed to the library. We left our bags on an empty table and went down to have dinner/my tea break. I had my apple lattice with iced coffee while Vic ate a chicken pie with ice coffee. Slacked till bout 455 before heading back up. I can't believe I forgot to collect the math notes again!!! Went back down only to realized that the photocopying shop was closed alr...

So went up to find Vic and ms Liang. Best thing was, when I was downstairs, the nsp food wasn't here yet but when I reached the table outside staffroom, they announcement to collect our food came. =.= Jingyi a.k.a the class cat was v nice and she helped me collect.

Okay so we has consultations with ms Liang and it was not bad. I gave her a lozenge and to think she thought I was gonna poison her or what. Tsk. She kinda told me that there's no time to learn and master everything now so I shld strategize in a way that those I'm know at, I should be good at it and aim to score full marks. Kinda true but there are a few areas that are exception and i'll have to master at least the basics. Like integration and vectors...

Vic and I continued doing math after she went in. I was eating my hokkien mee, picking out the tou gay cos it has this really strong smell. I think I took about 40 mins to finished eating. LOL. Vic was complaining how I'm a magnet, attracting teachers. Then, this random Chinese teacher was gg home and she walked past me and started an awkward convo.
T: aiyo, 你吃这个怎么可以不吃豆芽?
Me: ehh, 我有吃豆芽的, 只是这个的豆芽味道太重了...
T: 我告诉你hor，要吃多一点豆芽，你的皮肤才可以...
Me: okay...

*the teacher walks away*

Vic: SEE! I told you you're a magnet..
Me: eh you know what, idk her...
Vic: what?!! I thought you know her eh..

Then a second incident happened:

Another Chinese teacher was walking out of the staffroom and she just waved to me.. There was no other students at the table behind us and I was like... What?!!! LOL

Okay, so we continued doing math and we both were stuck at an integration qn for really long. Ms Liang came out and was gg home at bout 730 and so we decided to ask her come help us.

Me: ms Liang, cannot do leh.
Ms L: okok, wait I go toilet first.
Me: she must be peeing very fast for us.

LOL. She took bout 5 mins and miraculously, Vic and I solved our qns... Haha so when she came out...

Ms Liang: yes yes?
Me: haha omg you know what, just now when you walk past then *breaks out in laughter*
Ms Liang: what?
Vic: we can do the qns after we saw you.
Ms Liang: oh.. So you need me to stimulate you all la. So next time, I give you all a photo of me put in front of you then do math la.
Me: actually i have leh...
Ms Liang: okay then you give Vic ah.

Haha damn hilarious seriously. okay so we continued doing math but gave up after a long time. Vic left at 9pm leaving me there myself, studying econs... So I just like studied myself hoping that my parents will end soon.

At bout 940, ms Theresia ended her nsp and was gg home and she asked like how I was gg home etc. So I told her idk and why. Then mr Chris ong since idk when, was standing there and he offered to send me home. Omg I was like, huh? Issit inconvenient? Then he asked where I stay and stuff and say, like ehh, quite near to her. So I can send you first then send her back.. And I was like... Okay... And the next moment, ms Theresia was like, okay pack up now. LOL

So I was amazed by his car. There are lights at the bottom of seats and it comes on when you open the doors! Cool man. Then he used his gps to find my place but apparently, it couldn't find my postal code. So he kinda used directions from an altered postal code of mine. Then in the car we were just chatting, like the 3 of us. And it was a really nice chat I must say! He is really v nice! Can you imagine like idk him and he Dk me, but we end up talking for the entire 15mins and he even sent me home. Cool man.

So I was home at 10.10pm! Really v fast! I showered, ate supper and started studying my econs but was interrupted by some tweets which I thought I should do smthng bout it. So I whatsapp Two ppl and kinda
Helped them patch up eventually. Lol.

So that's about it for the night. Really eventful
And productive i must say! (:

Re-live

The last time I blogged during a lecture was 2 years back. Still Remb I was typing on my E65 constantly with the super slow iCell network. Yet with iPhone, I've never blogged in school during a lecture before...

So currently, I'm having chemistry lecture. Periodicity. Not that I'm not paying attention but I'm multi-tasking. Pau, I can multi-task okay! Lol. Funny how I did the same thing two years ago in LT4 and totally shut off what the chemistry lecturer was talking abt on a lousy phone and network and am doing the same thing now, on better technologies and still can understand what ms tan is lecturing about. High charge density=acidic! Haha.

Anw, this is just a random post to re-live some memories in JCs.

FRIENDSHIP BONDING

I realized my previous post was for A and so is this. Honored not? I'm blogging despite my super hectic schedule for the sake of you man. LOL.

Anw, I wanted to say that the smallest things can make the biggest impact and you've been really... Awesome (=.=) and it's really nice to have you as a MINOR part of my life. Bleah!

I mean, I cannot reiterate and emphasize how much have happened in the last 2 months, from that random night till now. And I think we are getting cooler each day! HAHA.

Okay back to my point, the point is: it's really comforting to know someone who in a worse off situation as you, having the need to attend 4 hours and sometimes 6 hours of lecture in the evening. MUAHAHA. Okay, I kinda mean like, it's great to have someone to 同甘共苦 with. Like how this week was really 'awesome'.

My week has been pretty much... The lack of sleep to sum it all up but when I'm falling asleep, there'll be someone to wake me up during lectures, when I'm like super unmotivated, got someone to motivate me (and of course vice versa), when im
Bored, got ppl to entertain me with stories like a v random phonecall that she receive, and it's VERY AWESOME.

Recollecting of that one random day in the foyer, I kinda Remb how someone told me that we meet ppl everyday, but we get to know a person better and become close friends/relationships only when the time is right. I bet you agree right! Haha.

Anw, it's really great la. I honestly admit I have no life, staying at home on weekends and in sch on weekdays to study, going for tuitions and stuff but I think i actually do have a mini-life now. Whatsapp makes up my life! HAHA.

No matter how silent I may be in class or in the library etc, you know I'll always be 'talking' crap on whatsapp. LOL. You know what, most of the time, the bar on the top right hand corner of my phone only starts falling at an increasing rate when you're awake. Though there are exceptions la. Cos no one as free as you.HAHA.

Okay, so I've officially crapped a post up
In this 寂寞的夜里 (idk why but I keep thinking abt this song lyrics) specially for you! I kinda think the contents of this post is similar To the previous one just that this has a more positive tone. So you can tell how cool you are right! =.= but yes, thanks for being an AWESOME (I néed the thesaurus seriously) FRIEND!!!!

Ionic, covalent and metallic bonding I'm okay with them, don't particularly like any of them. my favorite is.... FRIENDSHIP BONDING. Factors affecting the strength of it are:

1)time
2)effort
3)care and concern
4)phonebills
5)applications of a phone
6)ability to crap
7)stamina to endure late nights

We shall 加油 tog for the finals. I'm so looking forward to more of the 4 hour lectures while I'm at nsp thing and all the crap that has yet to be said! HAHA. I'm gonna sleep now!

Reflections

This post is a reflective one.

Okay so I was pretty emo during a few days out of the last few weeks.. And after coming back home on national day, i kinda burst and blurbed nonsense to A. Right now, I still feel so guilty man. But luckily she's nice la.

Many stories of S was told to me and like, I never knew he did so much for me... From getting the necklace to the soft toy. And not forgetting spending a large sum of money for the cushion... I'm really glad like all these happened and even if it didn't turn out well, I m glad to have been through all these....

Next, I'm getting more and more 感触 with the daily whatsapp with A. I didn't mean to emphasize this so many times but I think that night of whatsapp, it really created a beautiful beginning. Its been like 2 mths since then and we have been whatsapping like almost everyday. LOL. It's really great when there's someone you can disturb and she'll entertain you when you're bored, talk to when you're annoyed by some ppl at sch, teaching you chemistry at 1am, chatting on the phone with while sitting at the roadside waiting for transport home, waiting for you to finish your work before sleeping and So on.... Not forgetting someone for you to spam her twitter... Hehe.

I mean, we meet so many people in our entire life, but how many can you spend good times like this with? It has been an awesome 2 mths and no doubt the down times had silent us at many times, but the best thing is, the friendship never falters after everything. I can say yeah, sometimes to me, she's not just a friend because of the large difference in identity we have right from the start, the day i know her till now; our identity in this friendship may have been fixed since day one but at many times, the interactions tell it all. i do question if making friends with her actually create topics for people to judge me on but i guess it doesn't really matter afterall.

I am always glad when I know there is someone who is there at 12am that I can talk to or even ask qns; although it doesn't always applies but most of the time it does..

The last two months have made me a much more matured person I feel where I've learnt to give my advices and opinions to others and not just the usual, listening to what others have to say as a friend. This experience I'm thankful for and I know there'll be more much to come for the next few months.

All i can say is, thankyou; to myself, to A,to God. (:

A: your darkest period is nearly over! No more heartaches, smiling at her msges( but mine instead! Hahaha) and most of all, be happy! Sorry for the emo times and thanks for trusting me so much by telling me all the things that are really, the deepest secrets. Idk how to describe this feeling but it's really great to be whatsapping about almost anything and everything. Kudos to more good times! (:

Glimpse of the past few weeks

Okay.. So the last few days/weeks I was pretty busy with sch and life... Some recaps:

1) Viva La Music 2011
It went pretty well I must say. Really enjoyed the night. A came down to support! Got Xinling to accompany her and they actually click w each other! LOL. I shall blog about VLM in details, SOON....

2) tennis sessions with sam
Went to sam's house twice on sat to play tennis. I must say it's a really good workout(s) cos my face is literally red like lobster after that! And her dad will bring us out for some good food after that! Hehe

3) random visit back to KC.
So last friday I went back to KC, for fun. Watched the NDP Observance parade rehearsal and I must say that it's actually good! Went to udders with G and A after that before they walked me home...

4) national day celebrations
Okay so out of the group of us, only wip and I went to sch. We kinda slacked out way by sitting down to read some health mag, then played some games of which i won $15 voucher before we sat down do math and she played my iPhone. Finale was nothing much I must say.

Went back to KC to meet A for lunch and met ms Gan too! So chatted awhile with her and she knows mr kwek and Mdm Ang! Okay so after lunch at my all-time fav fish soup opp, went back to sch where I talked to mrs Ho for awhile and waited for A at the foyer. Subsequently saw Y and left sch!

5) national day
Started the day by gg plaza sing to have breakfast w my family. Met qimian at marina sq and we sat at jack's place for 2 hrs +
wanted to walk over to mbs to visit G but was kinda forced to take the train.. =.= so I took 2 hrs to get there... Crowded man. I met jas and cos I had to wait for G to end work, I walked ard w jas n her friends... Then met G at 6+ where we chatted while waiting for her Sis to arrive. After that was dinner at coffee bean before G called a cab and dropped me at aljunied.

Okay that's more of less about it.. (:

珍惜

最近，总是想太多。
回头看了看以前
放眼望了望未来
却被卡在现在。

心里有好多感想。。。。
想着想着，突然想起和S的那一段回忆
My girlfriend is an agent
那一次，真的感动
在哪冷漠的戏院里，他的那一件外套，温暖我的心。
但好事不一定都有好的结局，
我庆幸有过那一段美好的回忆，
遗憾并没有长久。

人，不就是总会为了往事以遗憾，却又不珍惜眼见的事务吗？

往事回忆如水般留过脑海里，未来浮现在眼前。珍惜，珍惜。。。。